Day 9 of food plan

I feel like I have two brains or people living in my head sometimes. When I'm my sane and rational self eating good is easy, it makes me feel good and I can easily say no to myself when I start to crave food that isn't on my plan for the day. However, once the emotional, agitated irrational girl takes over (commonly when I'm hungover) I feel like I will not feel better until I eat or taste this particular thing.

In the last 24 hours I went through 2 types of straying from my meal plan. Last night, I made a pumpkin soup which in all honestly was terrible however in my mind I had to eat it even though I had told my boyfriend that if it is uneatable then I would just have some canned soup to stay in line with my plan. So I had this bowl of gross soup with toast which I decided needed butter on it to make the soup taste better and then I started feeling this craving like I didn't like that taste, I need something to take over from it. So I began looking in the fridge for any leftovers or things that could get rid of the taste, I tried, ham, a handful of dry wheat pasta, left over lamb shank sauce (so bad to eat by itself), back to the dry pasta, mustard (straight from the jar) and then settled on some old left over mash potato which once again needed to be covered in butter to make it good. followed by another handful of dry pasta. I'm trying to figure out what brought this on as I had left work early an Sam hadn't said anything stressful about going out with the girls but I was alone. Looking back I did wait particularly for Sam to go have dinner with some of his friends just to be alone while I ate, and I am sure that if I had said please just wait with me a minute while I eat so I eat in front of him or ask Jen to come earlier/ ask Sam to leave later this craving would not have taken control of me.

I think I as slightly stressed from wok because I had left early and hadn't finished everything I had wanted.  Next time that happens I aim to focus on why I'm feeling like this and move on and accept that the feeling won't last forever and eating does not solve any probably.

The second slip happened today when I had a smoothie with my breakfast even though it was not on my food. I think this was due to guilt for the previous nights slip in addition to tiredness.hungover add and  being with some girlfriends...